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The Lush Illusions from the Blackness of my Contusions

from Nemesis by A Flower in Disguise

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I faulter with my own strength
It’s creeping up again, but I never let hope up
I possess a suffering
I’m tired of us, receive me with love
Dying to happy
Dying to live, the more I give
It’s doesn’t come easy, believe me
Don’t leave me, god
Don’t leave me on

Smiling at my doubt and inadequacy with certainty
The cause and the cure for me with reason weighing on me
Kept the psychosis soft, the lush illusions
Blossomed from the blackness of my contusions
Pulsating white noise, spinning in the sparking static
Kept the sparkle in my eyes blinking back celestial
Courting your worst, give me your blood promises
No shrinking, I fiend a tenderness I can’t handle

Kill your cravings
Blindfold me, then you can hold me
Disrobe me telling me things nobody ever told me
Begrudgingly I turn myself in and in
Pinned to the ceil
Currents run through swing of the pendulum
Moving through me and It’s strong
I can’t see the future in my dawn
I heard you broke your heart
Now I dance to you falling apart

I went to hell and back for your love
Still it wasn’t enough
Thank the caveman who taught me how to love
No love was never enough

Dying to be happy
Is it twisted fantasy?
All my dreams end me
Resting cure festered the sore
Evolved the exorcism of emotion
How’d I make it this far
With my envy of the dead
Hell, what’s left? Heavy you said
Pouring salt in my bed
Restless instead
I’m tired
I’m tired

Smiling at my doubt and inadequacy with certainty
The cause and the cure for me with reason weighing on me
Kept the psychosis soft, the lush illusions
Blossomed from the blackness of my contusions
Pulsating white noise, spinning in the sparking static
Kept the sparkle in my eyes blinking back celestial
Courting your worst, give me your blood promises
No shrinking, I fiend a tenderness I can’t handle

Kill your cravings
Blindfold me, then you can hold me
Disrobe me telling me things nobody ever told me
Begrudgingly I turn myself in and in
Pinned to the ceil
Currents run through swing of the pendulum
Then your ego stroke killed my rhythm
Your words rung heavy with praise
Moving through me and It’s strong and it’s strong
I can’t see the future in my dawn
I heard you broke your heart
Now I dance to you falling apart

Nothing looks promising
Feeling the sensuality of your tears my skin
You broke what was broke
Speaking with the heart
Hide the body
Fight it off
Haunt me lover with phantom pains
No, love doesn’t say my name
I still dream of another and another
There’s so much to escape from
Treasured another buried sun
Nothing looks promising

Dying to happy
Dying to live, the more I give
It’s doesn’t come easy, believe me
Don’t leave me, god
Don’t leave me on
You empty me back to nothingness
From which I exist

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from Nemesis, released July 7, 2020

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Making experimental music

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